Surreal

Surreal! The days of late have been just surreal for me. Unexpected, incoherent, almost a dream at times and near to nightmare at times. Things change. Cause they are supposed to. And I am supposed to remain serene to them. But seldom I do. Never in fact. I could smile at them not anymore. They hurt. Hurt right at where it pains the most. But then its life. And life is supposed to be weird. So it is. My eyes at times makes my sight hazy and floating. Its then I realize it has got a droplet of tear in it. Almost involuntary. I wipe out. And I just grow little stronger than what I was before the drop was born to my eyes. One month was never so long. It were the weekends that come as prized days. Not anymore. I hate them now. I just want 7 working days. I hate going back to wake onto a Saturday morning. A dead Saturday morning. Its surreal and unpleasing.

Truly
Abinash

And I just miss

The heartbeat increases, the mind loomed by thoughts suddenly I stand still. Reluctant to move. Even a step. No desire to look at anyone, anything. Just a spontaneous desire to go into a self exile. Just a nonsense may be still a wish to yell out loud and cry alone. The gravity does not feel so strong as a sense of weightlessness takes over. The fingers tremble before the eyes. Like I have just heard my death sentence. Little nervous I guess. No noise, no voice can enter my ears. Just I can hear myself. Restless I reach to the pocket, grab the mobile in despair and anticipation. But in vain. I put it in my pocket close to chest, not to miss a single beep. Even unconsciously. It never beeps. Its blank, like my mind. The throat feels dry and i gulp some water. But in vain the feel continues. And I continue to be empty. I just realize I am missing something or may be some one to be more correct. I just continue missing.