Lakshya Ki Talaash mein......

Ujjwal aasmaan mein,
Ek tim tima ta taara tha,
Use dekh har roz mera dil soche,
Kya ye meri taraf koi ishara thaa,
Yun to taare bahat hai aasman mein,
Par wohi taare pe kyun lage hai man,
Jis din dhake aasma badal se,
Udaasi saa lage ye jiban.

Par yun to ishwar ne banaye hain taare asma ke liye,
Is dharti pe rehke mein unko kya paao ,
Nih sabda swapna se mein kya laon.

Yun to ishwar ne he isara diya,
Taaron ke liye tumhe chunaa hai aasman,
Jaana hai gagan k us paar aur banana hai pehchaan.
Tabhi mein samjha kya woh ishara thaa ,
Jo mere liye ek tim tima ta tara tha.
Ab manjil ki he samajh mujhko, jana hai bahat duur,
Us aasman ko chuonga mein , gagan k par bhi jaaunga mein.
Ab raste ki hai pehchaan mujh ko, jo bhram mein gaya tha bhool.

Ab apni khud ki samajh hai mujh ko, jise samjha tha meine dhool.
Pakad hai majboot abhi, lakshya nishaane par,
Bas dekhna hai dum hai mujhmein kitna wahan pahanch pane par.
Ishwar ki is prakruti ne sikhaya bahat kuch hai,
Ab dekhna hai meine sikha kya hai?

Jis lakshya ke liye hai janm mera, ushe safal prabal kar jaana hai mujhe,
Bahak gaya tha taare ko dekh kar, ki har subah ek ujjal suraj bhi hai.

... Few Quotations By Me!!

U may feel these quotes are rotten and they stink but I write them in the corresponding mind set.

1. Winning matters....

2. A true fighter never quits, but he must know what he is fighting for and whom he is fighting with.

3. To be a winner at life it does not take hard muscles but a strong mind and a brave heart.

4. I may not be the best man around but atleast I am giving it a try.

5. I may die a dog’s death but I can at least say I have never lived a dog’s life.

6. My birth was not my beginning and my death will not be my end but what lies between these two will certainly make history.
7.I never redefine things for I hate moving along the path which is already traversed.
8. Lion may be the king of jungle but I have never tried to live like him, because I m too busy to spend 70% of my life sleeping.

Ok Ok.. Few LOVE quotation now Yes these are too my own mind's products....

1. Love may be torture some times but it gives you the power of tolerance.

2. Love gives you a new colour and adds a new aroma which can't be experienced unless you are really into it.

3. Love gives you a head str\art for many things. Don't limit it with emotional destruction.
4. Set your love free untold and unaware to test its worthyness. If its true you will win one or other way.
5. Love was never my motive and hatred was never my attribute .

My Odd Habits!!!!

Hi! I again assume that more than one person check it and would not mind to refer in prural form. Anyway I have quite a few odd habits and I am not at all in a mood to change them.
The habits are like... I Love reading books on my bed. I can't sleep early even the days I return after 9 or so from work. I wake up early even the days I sleep at 1 or 2 in the noght. I wash cloths in the night only. I am not at all sincere and I never mind wearing unpressed shirts and pants (Even to work). But whats more important is I take all these for grant and have never tried to change them. May be I am yet to find a valid reason to change them all.
Apart from those habits now lets come to fw others....
I was few times told by my friends I am much into "Orkut" thyen I too found out it to be true and I quit it. I am out of it now.
Now also I am told I am much into my Blog ... and also I found I am. But I wont quit it, for my blog is one of my best friend where i have shared my many feelings. From agony to ecstacy. From fancy to fantacy! My blog has always been there with me witnessing all my moves and all my life. I can't quit it. In Bangalore I find myself very lonely many a times. But I render my feeling in my blog as I would have told them to one of my truest friend. So this is my blog that listens to me carefully with patientence untill I unfold myself fully to have a lighter heart and a clear mood.
So I can't give up this blogging habit.
About few other things... I am really choosey about the friends that I have. I am very carefull about them I mean atleast I make it sure they are what they are supposed to be. Many times I have been reproached for this but I can't change this habit too... for I love the few friends I have more than manmy things.. including my life. The only thing I give more priority to in life more than my friends is "My family" which needs me desperately and "my aim" that I carry as my truest of vision. So I choose friends who can really understand this very fact!
Enough of my so called bad habits from any social poit of view but it does not matter as I folw the "Who cares" theory and also the "let it be " funda.
Bye
Truly
Abinash

... The Touch..

In this calm blue night, under the cover of stars..
I want to feel your smell with this closed eye.
I want to stretch my hand to touch you and feel you with my fingers,
I need your sense to be felt in my heart.
I want to hold you back in my arms
to feel your breath and the restless calm.
I want to dance to the rhythm of the vibration of your lip,
To reverberate in your dangling black hair.
I want to feel you in my soul,
With the softness and the kind touch that you pour.
In the eternal dreams I want to chase you with all my heart,
In the rain, moon and the sun I want your shine being marked.
I want to feel you right beside me.
I am needless, I am desperate and I am restless.
I want to walk with your hand pressed against mine.
I want to see the rain drops going down your pink cheeks,
I want to smell the aroma of the air that touches you.
I want to kiss you with my soul and eyes closed,
And I want to feel you here with me.
In every tone of nature, in every step of the spring
I want to feel you right beside me.
I am needless, I am desperate and I am restless.
I want to walk with your hand pressed against mine.
I want to see the rain drops going down your pink cheeks,
I want to smell the aroma of the air that touches you.
I want to kiss you with my soul and eyes closed,
And I want to feel you here with me.

.... Inactive, Paranoid, desperate, Annoied, Lonely, Me

Hi! To all those who drop in by my blog to have some time off the main cource of life. Did I say those?? Sorry I sould have written "that" as only JB checks it. Any way today is a (another)saturday, a day off from work. hhmm.... The same routine stay at home, wash clothes. But what i don't like is the idle and inactive environment. It feels like I am stuck to some fixed time and fixed infinite loop. The same mess where I stay with all gloomy and unconsious about the human potential. All just wait for time to bring everything in flow and not making things happen. In the course of changing there mind set I am facing many comments and many abuses from them only? But still I need to try I cant just give up for some one finds it wrong. I have to continue untill I find it wrong.
I dont have many friend. And In Bangalore I have really few. But they too don't like me. But can't help I can't change my habits and attitude though I have changed my behavior a lot over the time. But still it feels bad. It makes me feel lonely even when I am surrounded by my mess mates and in a busy bus. Today I went to buy one sport shoe (forcibly) but I had to go all alone, no "buddy" to share time with or even to tell something when u desperately fell to speak out. No one with me. Its all alone. And I have grown paranoid. I feel no one likes me, all want to hurt me. I am help less. I am annoied with myself. I am not raising a finger at any of those who claim to be my friend. But on me who deny such claims.
But I am learning through it. may be some time I will complete learning and I will be a HUMAN any way. How ever I am in a mood as described in the heading.
Thats why I have decide to dwrown myself in Work and all those books I have with me from now on. And I have changed my office timming too. Now on I am going at 8:00. But from 16th this month I will be assigned with project work so I will be keeping my self busy deliberately. I will come down only after 9:00 in the evening. And may be even Saturdays I will work deliberately. I will overload myself with something called "work".
Bye.
Truly
Abinash

Attitude V/S Behavior

Many a times people have requested me or in another way expressed their reproach for me by saying “U have a very bad attitude. Change it. U don’t know how to deal with people. U don’t know about relation management and u must change ur attitude.”. So I thought to write this article to clearly distinguish between ATTITUDE and BEHAVIOR. What these people dislike about me is the behavior and not the attitude but they ended up saying it attitude ignorantly or with a misunderstanding of the term.
Attitude is a personal attribute of a man. It lies secure well defined well inside you. And its not accessible or changeable by the public. But the behavior is a public attribute, its what u show others. It’s just a prototype of your impression of them u carry on your mind. So behavior can be defined and judged by others.
In the other hand attitude is different its your personal creation it’s the attribute of mind and heart. It’s the way u standardize your code of values and your self esteem. Its only you who can judge and hence change the attitude.
Behavior is reflected in your dealing with people, your voice, your body language and most in your word. But attitude is reflected in your action, thinking, the way of tackling challenge and mostly in work. There is a significant difference between WORK and WORD. The word part is of less importance and for a visionary man may be of no importance. But Regardless of context the work is always important.
Behavior is just to fool others to give a fake impression of your existence but attitude is the real value system, your own brainchild which gives a blueprint of your ability and confidence. Behavior is for others and attitude is for yourself. We always say “Attitude Towards Life”, “Attitude Towards Work”, “Attitude Towards Humanity”. And we never say Behavior towards life, work or humanity. Behavior is specific, which varies from person to person. Our behavior may change for one person as compared to other. But our attitude is a constant it can be changed but over a long time and takes a great deal of deliberation. Our attitude lies how we take work, life and all those serious issues for which we are existing. Behavior is more related to heart, attitude is more related to mind. Behavior is a personality trait and have common strings with emotion but attitude is a stand alone identity. None other than u has the right to comment and alter your own attitude, its guided by the self esteem that we carry. But behavior is a fraud way of hypocrisy; it may not be a honest representation. Behavior is always vulnerable and prone to the circumstances but attitude is a shield code which we can’t permit others to intervene

That’s why its called “Positive Attitude” and not “Positive Behavior”.

Truly,
Abinash

... Gandhigiri OR Bhagatgiri..????

Today I read an article in TOI written with pride about Gandhism and the philosophy of Bhagat Singh. The author advocated both sides but finally concluded that in present world nither is valid but a mixture of both can only be fruitful and both have there own context of application!
What I wondered about the conclusion is the author hardly understand the real meaning of "Gandgism" and "The philosophy of Bhagat Singh". In a physical way if we consider these two are not different. Actually both are the offspring of a single mainstream. The main root of both "Gandhi's peace way" and "Bhagat's Inqalab way" are actually the same. Both are form of self indulgance in what you believe in passionately and self restraince from what you find wrong. Both are the supreme form of self guidance and motivation. Both the ways are the form of trust in "Truth". And both are the form of "Heroism".
Here what gandhism means is not just limited to the path of peace. Peace is just the colour of the way and not actually the path or the destiny. The destiny is "TRUTH" and "VICTORY". And the path is self motivated passion. The passion of believing in the strength of inner self and the power of unity.
In the most fundamental rules actually Bhagat Singh's "Inqullab Philosophy" also follows the same path and destiny but with a different colour. They are the great examples of self controlled and self driven men who have laid paths to cherished for ever.
Now lets discuss the topic more logically and with few facts and figures.
What exactly is peace? Is it the absence of violence? No, mere absence of violence is not peace or the path of peace. Rather it is the presence of right justice and respect. Respect to humanity and the ability. Peace is the presence of unity, it is the assembly of men who are self controlled and has real comprihension of what is wrong and what is right.
Now what is peace in the realm of Ganghism? Gangi uphold peace as his standard of fighting. Ganghi worshiped peace as the supreme power and leveraged it in the destruction of British power. So what we understand from this method is "We must be peace full in all aspect and and try to imitate the three monkes by closing our eyes, ears and mouths????" is n't it? But that where we mistake. Peace is actully as per the definition given above not in keeping quite of in restraince but its in raising a finger where ever wrong is being done and in indulgane. Peace is in finding what is right and sticking to it while fighting for it till the end.
In 1947 even Gandhi supported the sending of Soldiers to the border for the battle with Pakistan. Why? Because in that context peace is in eliminatinmg the evil.
So in the logical sequence we can find even Bhagat Singh was also a worshiper of peace but in a different way.

So in the present day society what we should learn as Gandhism or Bhagatism is not peace or violent method but the selfmotivation and controll that they had shown. We must practice peace as the presence of right justice. We must learn to know these philosophy as trust in the inner self and developing the moral standard to decide what is wrong and what is right.
Once we understand this very concept of "self motivation towards the truth" to be the most fundamental rule of Gandhism or Bhagatism then what ever we follow will be fruitful and will ensure peace at the end. So lets stop debating on the two rules which are in reality has the same root and start practicing the fundamentals for the uplift ment of the society, the nation and above all the "self".
Jai Hind.
Truly
Abinash.