My Idiosyncrasy.....

This is my idiosyncrasy. My way of projecting my self. Its my codes unchanged.
Things have changed since I had taken a last look at me. The changes are awful! A dream remains unachieved and I have too lessened working hard for it; can't find a cause "why". An attitude yet to be updated and a behavior too bad. I used to be very caring and sympathetic, but now I find I hardly care. I have changed! I don't why I am deviating from my objective. But its true something is dragging me away or is it me who is drifting away???? I am yet to find the cause and fix it. But one thing that I find unchanged is few of my behavioral aspect. I am never good at talking at social occasions. I just don't know how to react and how to laugh at things which u may not find funny. I don't know how to wittily handle peoples comments. I don't know how to go on discussing which u don't find interesting. I don't know how to discuss someone else (may it be good or bad). And this remains the same. Recently I visited one of my friends as she was leaving Bangalore but I found I am wasting their time. I felt like i am alien and I could not go on laughing at few things I don't find funny. But they are my good friends and I like them. But still I was unable to maintain a fairly good talking. And I ended up seeming rude and grave though I tried hard to be as polite as possible. Actually many people misunderstand this to be my gravity or proud but sincerely speaking I am never grave. Instead I am very natural and I feel great to have free and open ended discussions. I never see any one is inferior or superior. But I am always misunderstood. An das a general habit I don't give explainations usually and I just stay as a negative and misunderstood man in many people's mind. Can't help it.
Any way I need to change a lot and that too I have to get the earlier version back for few aspects.
Any way I thought I should jot it down so wrote it.
Bye
Truly
Abinash.